Ever have those days, or moments, that just send you to your knees? I woke up from a nap this afternoon to the sound of my daughter laughing. I could almost touch the sound. I woke up, went to the hallway, and closed my eyes really tight. I can see Gracie so clear when I close my eyes. Whenever I'm stressed, I close my eyes. I had them shut so tight, straining to hear the sound that I know I didn't really hear in the first place, that I started seeing different colors (ever have that too..). Nothing. The windchimes outside, the television downstairs, but not Gracie. I then got mad at myself for waking up so quickly. However, you can't live with your eyes closed. It's been 22 months. I was sent a video yesterday of a skit from The Skit Guys; a Christian duo who perform, well, skits. The video was called "The Mourning Booth". How many times I've sat in that booth in my short 40 years.. Anyways, after I opened my eyes to the empty hallway, I went back into the bedroom, bent down on my knees, and just cried. I really miss my daughter. It's not something that erases in time. It's just this part of my heart that hurts. Then I think about all the parents out there who are saying goodbye to their children right now, who will do so one day when they least expect it. How silly of me to wallow in my own pain and not realize the pain of others who are also walking down here with empty hearts. Too much is broken in this world, I can't wait for Heaven. I just want to reach out and touch His robes; just see His face, bend down in adoration before our King, kiss His cheek. For now, I reside in the reality of where He has placed me. Husband of an amazing woman. Daddy of an incredible son and one beautiful girl with angel wings. I have learned so much in the course of Grace's diagnosis, Homecoming, and nearly two-year journey since then, but I selfishly want her to walk through that door. The rational says that I can't believe I'd want my daughter back on this stained planet. The daddy in me just wants to see my little girl. Sorry for the mood of this message. I suppose I could leave you with a joke to make you laugh, but I'll instead leave you with this verse. 1 John 2:17, "The world and its desires will all pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever." God bless..