Amazing Love

Listening to "Amazing Love" on the radio on my way to work this morning, I just let the words soak into my soul. Alone in my car is one place I know I won't bother anyone with my poor singing, so I take advantage of the time there. It's strange this side of "one year" than the other; just because we can now sit there and say, "we were going through this last year at this time, and Grace wasn't here with us". Before the year mark, we weren't happy with what was happening, but at least our daughter was still alive. Today was Aaron's turn to shift into a "mood." He woke up not wanting to go to school today; which is rare for him. I have the ability to take time off to act as a chaperone with his class tomorrow on a field trip, so I hope this will bring some cheer.

Anyways, while listening to the radio this morning, I just began to praise and thank God again for all the wonderful parts of life He's given to me. I began to even praise him for the storms. Those stroms have molded me just as much, if not more, than all the happy moments I've had in 39 years. Before I walk into school, it's become a routine with me every day to lay a hand on one of the outside walls and say a prayer for the students and teachers who enter the building. It's something I first started doing for just my classroom several years ago, and it's just expanded I suppose. Today, I kept thinking of Philippians 3:12 which says, "not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me." I am so excited that I have been a sheep in His flock for 32 years now. I also know that there are millions who have not made that decision, including a very close loved one of mine, and it breaks my heart to see His children turn away from Him. I pray for specific areas every night. I pray for my family. I pray for Christian values which are often lacking in leadership today. But, I also lift up those people who I know will spend an eternity separated from the One True God if something doesn't happen. They are living their lives completely on their own terms, and it hurts me to see that. I can't imagine how heartbroken the Father must feel every time one of His children says, "no thanks." I don't really know what all I'm trying to convey in this writing, I just really needed to write down some loose comments that I had floating inside my head today.